Deprived Childhood

Not really, but sometimes I think that. We talked a lot in class on Wed about Cupid and Psyche and how their story resembles quite a few Disney stories. *sigh* I hated Disney movies as a child, I still do! I actually hated all tv when I was little, I liked playing outside. I'm sure I HAVE seen Cinderella, and Snow White, etc... but I don't remember much about them if I have. I still to this day get massive ADD when trying to sit and watch tv for more than twenty minutes, I start hopping around, pausing the movie (of possible) and reading, getting up.... Anyway, the point of this babble is, I'm thinking now that I might be missing out on a lot of connections (especially in this class) because I don't know any of the "popular" things I should know. I've never read harry potter or the lion, the witch and the wardrobe , never seen ANY movie really, I do like the Simpsons so that's a plus for me.... But I miss a lot I think.

My term paper might reveal a little more of my out of touchness... I'm not sure, it was a question that I had and wanted to get answered and decided why not answer it well and write a paper on it, so that's what I did. I hope it is valid, I'm not too great at being told to just write a paper, I like some direction on term papers, oh well, guess we will find out. Speaking of term papers, I just put the finishing touches on mine. I hate public speaking :( We'll see how badly I do with it tomorrow...

Boy, I'm kinda grumpy tonight, I blame the snow!

I think it's neat that we got to Isis! I like Isis!

*fumbles around to upload a picture...*

Hmmm... not exactly where I wanted to picture to go.... or the size of it.... but ok....

I also find it kind of humorous that Love and Psyche got together and created Pleasure... Pleasure is not really what I think of when you combine Love and the psyche.

So, the last statement that was said in class I think is fitting for the end of class in general:

"It's a happy ending but you need to be initiated to it."

Death be with you

April 2nd

We talked a lot about philosophy in the last class. It was really kinda neat, although I myself am terrified of religious people and don’t get to talk about that kind of thing with a small group. I really enjoy larger group discussions on it. It is also kind of neat to think that maybe the ancient Romans and Greeks were Buddhists! Well… minus all the death and torture and such… But the Greeks and Romans did seem to believe in “after life’s,” Ovid’s Metamorphosis is nothing but re-births, whether they be into another sort of life (human to animal), or a belief in sacrifice to become greater. THERE IS NO DEATH. But a question was posed that struck me—well, it’s always struck me—as interesting…

Is ignorance bliss?
I myself have always thought NO!!!!! I loath and despise not knowing things or being the last to know things. I need to know the truth as soon as it occurs no matter what the consequences to my feelings. That’s just me. I know a lot of other people are happy to live in their imaginary worlds of falsehood, and maybe that is best for them. I used to work at the VOICE center on campus and had to put my feelings aside a lot of times to help someone in need and a lot of those people were not in a position to acknowledge the truth just yet. I guess it depends on you as a person, as well as financial obligations and other outside factors.

The statement was also made that “Everyday is an adventure,” but that many many people forget this because our lives have become so mundane. That’s absolutely true! Every day does have the potential to be an amazing adventure, but in this day and age everyone is in too much of a rush to take their time and find it. Even something simple as taking the long way in to work could be a new adventure… But people just want to get from point a to point b and back again. The journey has become obsolete.

March 25th

Today we listened to people giving their one minute Ovids. It was a lot of fun actually! It was neat to watch two different people tell the same story. To see what each person took away from it. It’s true that you insert yourself into whatever you read. You have to. People associate things with things they know. So if you say “draw me a tree” you will never ever get the same tree from two different people. There is so much that goes on in the brain to make people who they are! Granted, standing up infront of a large group of people tends to unnerve people so some would forget points or details from the stories, but still, the tails were so different even though they were exactly the same. I’m rambling now so I better stop…

Suffering the Fleet?

March 23rd

I really had a connection with today’s topic of discussion! Why do we write? J Ahhhh. I LOVE LOVE LOVE to write. Maybe I’m not very good at it… I certainly stink at technically writing. But I so do enjoy writing and letters. We talked about how writing gives you power over something that otherwise would control you. Say an event or a feeling. When we write we get that emotion out of us. I’ve always kept a journal, I have volumes upon volumes of notebooks and journals and such filled with my writing chronicling most of my life. It is powerful, to look at my bookshelf and see books filled with parts of me. I’m getting rather personal so maybe I should move on..

Suffering… all is suffering, all is fleeting. I don’t believe it, all is suffering and all CAN be fleeting, if you face things head on. Things don’t just go away, they have to be buried – at least in regards to suffering and pain. You can’t ignore pain because that is what pain feeds on. Suffering needs your attention to be scared away.

Roses are Green.... with envy

Feb 15th

Ah… love is in the air… I had to work on Valentine’s Day and because of that my boyfriend sent me roses to my work J Happy for me, bad for every other man that walked into my work with a girlfriend… My god!

What is love?

Feb 14th

We were asked the question what is love? and if it's even a question that has an answer.... well.... I don't know. I think everyone can look back on what they thought was at one time or another "love" but I don't know many people that can do it and say "yes I did love them." Why? Why is love such a strange emotion? Socrates said in the Symposium, that love can never be perfect because love is wanting and you can't want what you already have, you can only want more. I think that this is wrong, I think if you honestly love someone you will want more, but you will want more from them.

That brings us back to what the heck IS love? Is it an emotion? Is it simply a chemical reaction? Is it something just made up because people don't like to be alone? Maybe all of the above... I don't know. I think it involves a longing to make yourself better for someone else, and a longing to help that other person be the best they can be. I think it's the compassion to be effected (affected?) by how the other person feels, and effected so fully and wholey it hurts. I think love is true and honest and that it doesn't have an answer. It just is.



No...that was not a cop out :)

I'm CONNECTED!!!

So I moved in Feb and just now have gotten my interent hooked back up :) YEY! I'm so excited! I'm connected again! I can read the Eternities again! And the police reports :) Ahh how I've missed those. You'll be seeing a ton of posts from me coming up now because I've been writing them just on my laptop so now comes the fun of cutting and pasting them onto my ejournal *sigh* no rest for the weary I suppose. I think I'm going to have to get all my back entries up first before I can start with current ones otherwise things will just be a horrible mess so please bear with me :(